Tuesday, July 17, 2007!
HandWritten on; 7:21 PM
Second chances they don't ever matter, people never change.
Once a whore you're nothing more, I'm sorry, that'll never change.
And about forgiveness, we're both supposed to have exchanged.
I'm sorry honey, but I'm passing up, now look this way.
Well there's a million other girls who do it just like you.
Looking as innocent as possible to get to who,
They want and what they like it's easy if you do it right.
Well I refuse, I refuse, I refuse!
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misery business; paramoreBULLYING . What a talk. Lol.
Seriously, they can warn us and tell us about what is bullying and that WE can be the SOLUTION bla bla bla. But come on, since when was bullying that simple nowadays?
People just have to DEAL if they're bullied, unless, of course, those kinda super serious kinds like being bashed up or having their money extorted or e.t.c. , must report la. LOL.
But most of the time, who the hell complains about it. Its like, if you complain, you'll know you are so gnar be condemmed by other people for the rest of your... hmm, about sec sch life? Haha.
It's like if you complained, people will think you're a whimp or something. Especially complaining about small small stuff like being called names or something. The best solution for name calling is just to LEAVE those freaks alone! They'll find it bored after a while.
And vulgarities, like who the HELL doesn't use them ? LOL ?!
Saying vulgarities is like so natural for some people ler. For example, me. LOL.
Anyways, enough about that, last week, during cme lesson, mrs sunneeth was talking to us about CONDUCT in RELATIONSHIP. She always have a way of making the subject more lively. Lols! Esp there was one part when she asked us what does the D in CONDUCT stands for, ck was like; DO AND RUN. LOLLLLL. We burst into laughter. Hahaa. Having jokers like ck and luke in our class is WONDERFUL i tell you. ((;
Well, after that was over, mrs sunneeth was like telling us the story of her husband and her. Obviously i won't say any details here, but i can say i was kinda... Intrigued by the story. Haha. It's so nice to see more older generation couples being so loving even after so many years. I'm sure everyone would like that right? Growing old, having a partner that won't ever let you go, having a partner saying sweet nothings to you, having a partner to tell you how beautiful you look with all the wrinkles and white hair, having a partner that you can trust forever, having someone to love you as much as you love him/her, having a partner that will stand up for you no matter what; being in
everlasting love.Hahaha. Sorry i was kinda getting emotional already. Haha. x)
Any how, though we have love life now,
well for some of us, we still can't avoid the pain of heartbreak and the disappointment when the other lets one of us down right?
The worst part is the breakup part. No matter how long it has passed, you'll still feel the ache at times, having flashbacks of the relationship that you want so much to avoid having, having the most frustrating feelg that you want so much to care for that person, but you're only his/her friend, you have to know your limits, having to look at them and pretend everything's fine, your heart is not ripped apart, you're having the time of your life, when you're actually literally experiencing hell. And the most extreme one, looking at him/her going around with their new girl/boyfriend. That is like having the most acidic kind of acid being poured on your heart and your heart is like taking its own time to melt. You can't do or say anything about it.
Looking at of the party is alright, but if you look at both of them together, thats a whole different feeling.
BUT HEY. We can't let them have the satisfaction right? We have to be STRONG! ((;
Though its really tough, but if you put your heart&soul to it, im sure we'll be able to do it. We just have to change the way we see things. We have to be happy for them if they're happy. And when they're not happy, we should fill ourself with HAPPINESS so we can cheer them up, like being there for them if we are needed.
I may sound like i'm full of crap, but hopefully some people will get what im trying to say.
Our feelgs don't control us. WE control our feelgs.We can CHOOSE not to be sad. We can CHOOSE to be happy, choose to see things in a positive way, and then, we won't be as low spirited already.
(; I know its hard, but if you don't want to have this kinda sucky feeling every single day, thats what i suggest to do.
Im no expert in relationships,
not at all.I just find that this method is useful, and i hope broken hearted people out there will just go on with life, cheerfully.
Things that belong to you, will be yours in the end come what may.
I don't know why i'm suddenly sharing this but... oh well. Lol.
Maybe cause i saw something that i've been trying not to see, all month. Twice in day somemore.
Sigh. I've tried distancing myself from you, i've tried so many other ways, WHY can't i just succeed.
i need to find somebody who can't sleep at night
without holding me without holding me tight
i want someone who sees me all the time in their dreams
and then wakes up thinking just of me
spent time on my own
spent time being free
now i just wanna be
overloved
over needed
over wanted
over missed when i'm away
overloved
over dreamed of
over cared about
over everything
i'd give anything to be overloved
i want someone who can't wait to kiss me again
even though it's been a minute since they last did
want someone who loves love songs
and dedicates them to me
and two loving arms never out of reach
been fine all alone
did fine being free
this time i wanna be
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-overloved by paula deandai really love that song.i really love my parents.i really love my girlfriends; en nia kris vic.i really love my god bros;sis;darlgs.& i'd really really love to forget you.
