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Sunday, December 31, 2006!

HandWritten on; 8:43 PM

today went out with kania, enhui, marcus, wen long and david.
met kania and en hui at nia's house at 11.3oam.
kania had to unpack since she just came home ytd night.
lols.
she took a total of 3 hours to pack . from 1o.3o to 1.3o. lols.
godd. if en hui and i didnt help her. i really wonder what time will she be done.
lols.
lets see how busy nia is;

hahaa. and lets take a look into the luggage shall we?

looks neat but there are hell loads of stuff inside. haha

and look at her ever so TIDY bed. haha

me and darlg en hui took some pics while we waited for her to rush here and there. haha

when she was finally done.

went to find wenlong.

then called the guys to see whether they were free.

in the end marcus and david could make it only.

went to cine to eat at esteller.

aww. look at little blur wenlong. haha.

i took super alot of snap shots of him and he didnt know. lols.

and if you want to know how blur he is... lol. he asked nia when school reopens.. she said the 6th[which is on a sat] and he believed her

LOL.

and then we were joking and laughing alot .

see kania.

she laughed till dont know what la.

hahaha. and look at marcus and wen long. lol. they like enemies or smth . haha.

aint i right? LOL

somemore one white one black. omg? lols

after that we went up to the arcade to play. david join us then.

we had fun playing arcade lar. lols.

en nia and me.

love them both.

oh well. i have loads more to blog later or tmr.

but i wnar wish all of you;

a very HAPPY HAPPY NEWWW YEAR!

hope ya'll had fun in 2oo6.

and hope that everything goes smoothly in 2oo7 alright!

LET YOUR HAIR DOWN AND LETS GO COUNTDOWN.

Wednesday, December 27, 2006!

HandWritten on; 11:53 PM

heys.
belated merry xmas people.
havent been blogging
havent really got the mood.

been thinking about him far too much

im sorry. actually i have things to talk about.
like my aunt's xmas party.
and the buffet i had today with my parents and marilyn.
but i jus really dont have the mood.
maybe another day.
im sorry.

fck.get out of my head.

Saturday, December 23, 2006!

HandWritten on; 1:54 PM

hey ya'll.

i think the image is pixellated ?
but i cant see it cause on my com its ok.

sooooo. ill be waiting for marilyn's professional help .

so by then , bear with it ? thanks .

anw .

MARCUS CAME BACK!

well from thailand . lols .

and he bought me a mashimaro soft toy ! awww. xDD

the cutest right?

and his mummy was so sweet to buy me a shirt.

awwww. THANK YOU MARCUS MUM.

lols.

seriously, it is so sweet of her.

i shall buy smth back.

=))

hmm.

its xmas in 2 days!

go out and enjoy yourselves people.

im going to my aunt's place to celebrate xmas tonight

whheees.

that means presents and food and my handsome little boy!

hahaha.

ohhh lala .

well, im feel kinda paiseh to go.. since i just straightened and cut my hair YTD so i look like a total retard and when you see me , i have a chop on my head saying : PLEASE LAUGH.

lols.

meows. ytd was the sec 1 orientation.

man some sec 1s have their attitude to check mans.

seeeeeeriously.

better not talk about it . lols .

makes my blood boil. reeeeow.

alrighty.

its like nooooooooooooooon.

and im boreeeeeeeeeed .

well.

gotta go.

BYE love ya.

Wednesday, December 20, 2006!

HandWritten on; 6:29 PM

heeeeeeeeeeeeeello people.

havent been blogging

cause i was just plain lazy.

so sorry. hahahs.
here are some pictures from e chalet.

marilyn & me

my handsome lil prince.

black and pink.

haha.

im the black one. xD

well, i didnt exactly TAKE alot of photos there.

it was ... b-o-r-i-n-g.

lols. cause it was raining every single day.

so yea.

just stoned around the house most of the time.

watch movies.

and i had to watch two horror movies.

fuck sia LOL.

one is a thai movie. another is a channel 5 late night movie : valentine.

sighs.

both night of the chalet i did NOT have enough sleep.

cause i couldnt really sleep since my subconscious mind is making me think abt... all those stuff la.

lol.

i was creeping myself out.

well, the chalet with my frens werent creepy cause there we SO many of us ?

ohwell.

ytd marilyn did her prelude performance at velocity.

well, she was nervous so she missed some parts.

but. well hey, give her the credit that she has the guts to perform.

if it was me.... god i think i wld have died..

lols.

i have serious stage frights.

lols

hmmm, nothing much to blog about.

maybe cause im kinda lazy to do it.

haha.

oh yea. i changed my blogskin? lols.

well, its plain i KNOW. but tell me how you think abt it ?

its my first time editing a blogskin so.. yea. lols.

its for the upcoming xmas lahs. haha.

will be changing it after xmas.

not sure. sigh.

anw

BYE LOVE YA'LL.

xDD

Friday, December 15, 2006!

HandWritten on; 11:10 PM

IM GOING OFF TO MY FAMILY CHALET TMR.
SO, ILL BE GONE FOR 3 DAYS.
MISS ME ALRIGHT GIRLS?
=)

AND , IM SICK.

hahahaha.
ill takecare.
you girls too k?
when im gone pls continue to tag!
ill be like super happy to see that my tagboard hasnt died.
hahas.

ILOVEYOUALLLA.

sigh,ijustmissyouso.
andbeingatthatchaletagain?
it hurts so much
you wont understand the pain.

Wednesday, December 13, 2006!

HandWritten on; 7:33 PM

ahahaha.

firstly, i would LOVE to thank my sweetie victoria for like totally jacking that anti-losers person.

and nextly is kaniaa la. haha. super cute la you two . hahas.

ANW anti loser, aw come on. we dont know who you are.

and its like, you're readin our blogs and just basing on that then you say that victoria's a bitch? and that shes not sexy ? and that IM ACTG SEXY?

oh heeeeeeeeeello much ?

firstly, ive never said i was sexy.

secondly, how can you judge us by just reading our blogs huh ?

thirdly, we dont even know you. maybe we do but you had to put "anti-losers" as your name right. hahaa. so maybe, who knows, you could be the biggest loser we'll ever know. =) thats just so sad.

alright.

ytd i had the longest shopping day lahs.

and and after it.

i must say; SHOPPING THERAPY WORKS

but but, shopping for 1o hours nonstop

is tiring. lols. seriously.

at the end of the day. even sitting down hurts.

omg. haha.

anw. i met enhui at sommerset mrt at 11.3oam and went to cine to eat first.

then the shopping started. haha

walked around cine first. then went to heeren.

i bought one top there from flash n splash! super nice i love it to bits la.

then then en bought a shirt from espirt.

after that we walked to plaza sing.

wheeeeeees la.

i bought a white coloured flesh imp bag la.its sucha bargin.

from $7o drop to $56.

cause got 2o% discount.

*screams*

and thats my xmas pressie from my god aunt. haha, gave her a call and she said yes.

wheees.

and i bought like 3 tops from m-industrie.

its having a SALE 2 tops for $15 and 2o% off the first item

so its like.

BUY LAA.

hahaha

anw . after that en bought a pair of slippers at charles and keith. [MY FAV SHOP LA]

then i had to go homeeeeeeeee . lols .

and she went to bishan to buy her CONVERSE BAG. haha

shes so happy she bought it.

haha.

well i went back to temple.

mummy changed and its off to bugis we go.

went to seiyu to shop shop shop .

the reason we go there is to shop for xmas pressies.

managed to buy a few.

after that went to delifrance to have dinner.

then went back to seiyu to buy stuff.

i bought another 2 more t shirts

*screaaaams*
haha

and the outside of seiyu looks realllll nice la

i took pics

SEE.

super nice right? haha
and i saw a walking ice cream ! super cute la

and theres this super nice tree. haha

anddd how much is that piggie in the windoww ~

hahas.

after that my dad came to fetch us

what a day la.

hahaha

it did help the pain though

yet.

once i came home.

reality just came back to me.

HandWritten on; 12:59 AM

you wont ever know how much it hurt me.
you wont know the pain i felt.
you wont know how much tears that ive shed.
cause you thought that i didnt care.
and i did.
but when i wanted to make it up to you.
it was just too late.... just too late...
sigh.
no matter how many sorries i say, will never make it up to you, i know.
you never knew how muched i love you.
you'll never know how much that im missing you right now.
i hate it.
i hate the pain
i hate the heartaches
i hate it that my heart always seems to be so empty and seems to be missing you so much.

i hate it.
i hate me.

and p.s. im still not over you.

Monday, December 11, 2006!

HandWritten on; 5:39 PM

i pray for this heart to be unbrokened.
but without you all im going to be is imcomplete.
hello babies.
hahaa.
kania and victoriaaaaaaa honey.
haha im sorry that i offended you girls but its like............
haha
1. ima failure
2. ima imature person
3. im selfish
4. i dont care about ppl's feelg
5. self centered
5 goodddddddddd reasons ler lahs.
haaaaahs.
im so fucked up.
=)

oh and vic hone. haha my right eye gotten better ytd night. hahaa
anw, today's practice was alright.
though i felt like crap.
haaaaaaaah.
its a wonder im still alive.
i looked like i got banged down by a truck.lols.
and today some of us had our costumes.
erms... lols.. well i looked absolutely hilarious and horrible looking in it.
but some of them looked quite nice.
hahaa.
its like a mix of wu shu dance and a waitress.
YES. a waitress. lols.
oh meows .
en hui saw me in it
and she started to laugh till god knows what la.
lols.
en and i went united to meet up with marcus.
ate at mac. saw elva and her friend.
talked and talked.
sigh.
then walked arounddddd united.
i went crazy at level 2.
haaaaaaaaaaaaahs.
you dont want to know what i did.
lols.
then at like 3 we decided to go home
i walked back to farrer park with him.
that was the first time we walked soooooo freaking slowly la.
lols.
sigh. oh well.
then we slacked at temple.
lols.

oooh. im in a emo songs mode.
hahhaa.
'what hurts the most
was being so close
and having so much to say
and watching you walk away
and never knowing
what could have been.'

'and i hurt myself by hurting you'

'(女)在屋頂唱著你的歌
(男)在屋頂和我愛的人
(女)讓星星點綴成(合)最浪漫的夜晚
擁抱這時刻這一分一秒全都停止
(男)愛開始糾結
(男)愛開始糾結(合)夢有你而美
(女)將泛黃的的夜獻給(合)最孤獨的月
(男)愛開始糾結(合)夢有你而美'

'Nobody knows

Nobody knows but me

That I sometimes cry

If I could pretend that I'm asleep

When my tears start to fall

I peek out from behind these walls

I think nobody knows

Nobody knows no'

'I've tried to fight it, can't deny it

You don't even know that

I still need you

I still care about you

Though everything's been said and done

I still feel you like I'm right beside you

But still no word from you'

'Ain't gonna show no weakness

I'm gonna smile and tell the whole world I'm fine

I'm gonna keep my senses

But deep down when no one can hear me

Baby I'll be crying for you'

'You told me I should be strong
Oh, I'm trying, I feel I can't go on
You left me here on my own

Without a reason for living
A chance for forgiving
A time to make it okay
And now I'm stuck with the vision
Of my indecision
Taking it all away'

'Tell me, have you ever loved and lost somebody

Wished there was a chance to say I'm sorry

Can't you see, that's the way I feel about you and me, Baby

Have you ever felt your heart was breaking

Lookin down the road you should be taking'

'I can't sleep at night

When you are on my mind

Bobby Womack's on the radio

Singing to me'If you think you're lonely now'

Wait a minute

This is too deep, too deep

I gotta change the station

So I turn the dial

Trying to catch a break

And then I hear Babyface

I only think of you

And it's breaking my heart

I'm trying to keep it together

But I'm falling apart

I'm feeling all out of my element

I'm throwing things

Crying

Trying to figure out

Where the hell I went wrong

The pain reflected in this song

Ain't even half of what I'm feeling inside

I need you

Need you back in my life baby'

well,

hahaaa.

thats like the parts of each of the songs that i listened to which is kinda my fav parts.

dont worry i havent killed myself.... yet.

hahahaa.

love ya'll lahs.

im off.

bye sweeties.

p.s. i bold some of it cause like... the post has smth wrong. lol and its clearer to see.lol.

Sunday, December 10, 2006!

HandWritten on; 1:57 PM

MY RIGHT EYE IS SWOLLEN TILL LIKE A GOLDFISH LA.

seriously.
lols.
its like.
i wake up.
i look into the mirror.
i look at my parents and im like.
oooooooookhay......
whos the one that punched me.
then they both look at my eye . LOL. my mum was like laughing and my dad just went to the bathroom.
what the hell la. lols.
seriously.
its hideous! LOLS.
godddd.
and i feel like crap.
lols.
i didnt eat breakfast.
and i dont really plan to eat lunch
no appetite.
sigh . some of you may know why . haha . en im sure you know why .

when darkness turns to light,
it ends tonight.

sigh. how depressing can life get.
i hate me.
hate me hate me hate me.
ima bitch la! sigh.
im a terrible horrible person.

i should be un-loved.
sigh.
i just feel lik falling into a deep deep sleep.
sigh.
but thats escaping reality.
and thats like totally wrong i know.
sigh.
but... i just cant take it anymore.
the pain the agony the tears
i just... sigh.
i dont know what to do.

someone.
kill me.
i beg of you.

Friday, December 08, 2006!

HandWritten on; 11:50 PM

ALRIGHTY.

hellooo babes.

and HELLO JOANNE.

whos finally back.

hahaa.

didnt go for c.o today.

FELL ILL la.

lols. stupid idiotic headache keeps pestering me for the whole week.

visits me whenever it wants.

grrrs.

and today was the worst.

=/ and flu's coming on pretty hard too.

sighs.

oh well,

nth nice to blog about today.

unless you wnar hear about my suffering, which i probably think you wouldnt want to .

so yeaap ! ill take this time to blog about my outg with marilyn. xd

well, went out with her to marina square.

i wanted to go there for the arcade! wheehes.

after playing went to eat ljs.

after eating. went to play for a while more.

xDD.

then we went to walk around to find her a skirt for her wedding dinner.

but in the end also couldnt find one. =/

but i tooked some pics. whees. lols. tooked it at mini toons.

couldnt resist.

the pigs were too adorable. hahaha xD

that pigg.

LOOK AT THE PIGSSSS. hahaha .

seriously love em la. haha.

hmmmms, we walked around somemore and we went to DIVAAA.

that shop is maaa love la.

xD though too bad im not born rich, so like i cant buy the things i wantttttttt. T.T

but marilyn and i bought a pair of rings for ourselves.

meows.

and then we walked till our legs ached super badly and so we went to starbucks to rest.

she had her mocha frap while i drank my caramel frap. =)

we took a pic of our rings. =)

=) after that we went to ps walk around.

saw boon chun and his gang there

then went to the x zone the arcade. omg

we saw wei yeat la.

hahaa. he changed drastically la.

and taller somemore.

idiot. lols~

then went to collect her specs.

then i had to go home.

well.

this was suppose to be ytd's post.

but smth came up

so i cldnt blog.

anw.

love yall.

bye.

Wednesday, December 06, 2006!

HandWritten on; 7:57 PM

AHS.
I CANT PUT PHOTOS.
SO IM NOT BLOGGING TODAY LA.
LOL

Monday, December 04, 2006!

HandWritten on; 6:16 PM

wheees.

havent blogged for some time.

i know. x( so sorry.

lols.

ANWW.

today went out with en first.

then went to c.o.

hhhhmmmm, it was boring as usual... okok lahs.

BUT then ... lols . today i just reaaaaaaally couldnt stand someone.

well, i couldnt stand that someone from the first time i saw him/her.

omfg. you just cant shut your bloody mouth up eh .

teacher just wanted to let us rest. you want him to pratice.

fine.. pratice no problem alright. but when he said to play that particular part again.

then you complain.

like w-t-f .

you wna pratice. dont fucking complain alright? if you want to, then next time, dont even open your mouth.

arghs. fucked up.

you can say its none of my business, but hey, this is what i feel, this is my blog, i rant what i want to.

OH-k. enough of that. =)

anw anw.

goddd. ima crazy over the new harry potter movie. muahhas.

and im awaiting for the movies : HARRY POTTER***, DEATH NOTE 2***, GHOST RIDER**, teenage mutant ninja turtles** omg omg omg!

ahhas.

cant wait cant wait. meows.
hahahas.

*screams* KIRAAAAAA.

28 dec!!!

you-know-who. lols.

lalalas.

anw ima going to go.

xDD.

love ya'll.

&ihurtmyselfbyhurtingyou.