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YooHoo. I'm Jessie.
I POP-ED into this world on 11June1992
I studied in BalestierHillSecondarySchool.
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Ohh ohh...

When the visions around you,
Bring tears to your eyes
And all that surround you,
Are secrets and lies
I'll be your strength,
I'll give you hope,
Keeping your faith when it's gone
The one you should call,
Was standing here all along..

And I will take
You in my arms
And hold you right where you belong
Till the day my life is through
This I promise you
This I promise you

I've loved you forever,
In lifetimes before
And I promise you never...
Will you hurt anymore
I give you my word
I give you my heart (give you my heart)
This is a battle we've won
And with this vow,
Forever has now begun...

Just close your eyes (close your eyes)
Each loving day (each loving day)
I know this feeling won't go away (no..)
Till the day my life is through
This I promise you..
This I promise you..

Over and over I fall (over and over I fall)
When I hear you call
Without you in my life baby
I just wouldn't be living at all...

And I will take (I will take you in my arms)
You in my arms
And hold you right where you belong (right where you belong)
Till the day my life is through
This I promise you baby

Just close your eyes
Each loving day (each loving day)
I know this feeling won't go away (no..)
Every word I say is true
This I promise you

Every word I say is true
This I promise you
Ooh, I promise you...
-nysnc; this i promise you

you know. how nice it would be to have a guy dedicate those lyrics to us {girls} right?
sigh, it's been TWOMONTHSandFIVEdays already. I don't want to remain feeling like this forever.
I don't want this devastated feeling here anymore. It's been too long.
I'm so sick of this feeling, i'm trying to hard to forget you already, what is it about you that i can never get out of my system.
sigh.

I miss you. Real badly. But, nothing i can do about it right?
I just hope you and her are really happy together, and last as long as you two can.
As long as you're happy, i can't wish for anything better than that.

Sigh..

ILOVEMYFRIENDS.
always there for me.
always cheering me up no matter what.
always listening to my rantings, my problems.
always finding a solution to my problems.
always helping me out as much as they can.
always caring and showing their concern for me.

ilovethemmanymany.
esp my 3dumbdumbs.
they're thebest.
they're priceless.
IM so lucky to have those threeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.(;
dumbdumbs.
if you're reading this.
I LOVE YOU GIRLS.
and give me a super big hug on monday?
;/ i need a hug badly.

OKAY.
THIS WHOLE POST IS DEDICATED TO THAT ONE HELL OF A SHITY NO BRAINER ASSHOLE WHO'S, SADLY, FROM MY CLASS.

You KNOW, it's REALLY none of your business when the teacher asked you who didn't go for the course. SERIOUSLY WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU?
revenge? If this is your way of revenge, oh that is sooooooooooooo low of you. REALLY, i pity you. & i thought your attitude was THE BEST man. Wah, so we all follow you right? OK, next time, don't even think about not coming to a workshop or event without a reason alright? Cause we will ALL TELL ON YOU ALRIGHT? You KNOW YOU ARE NOT WELL LIKED AT ALL so why keep making yourself even MORE unfavourable to us?
What now, you wnar be teacher's pet ah. HAAAAH. KEEP DREAMING jackass.

You know you look extremely AWFUL, wait, awful doesnt even start to DESCRIBE YOU. I don't think ANYTHING will be able to describe a face like yours. Distorted? A monstrosity? Hideous? Replusive? Revolting? Horrid? Disgusting? Apalling? Man, even all these words put together, cant even describe the full LOOK of you. Like, STOP TRYING TO ACT LIKE SOMEONE IMPORTANT, STOP TRYING TO ACT COOL, STOP TRYING TO ACT LIKE YOU KNOW EVERYTHING WHEN YOU'RE REALLY SUCHA DUMB ASSHOLE. IF you are really smart, you'll know that people who are in your surroundings DONT LIKE IT WHEN YOU TALK TO THEM, YOU'RE IRRITATING THEM TO THE CORE. Don't give them speeches like, OH~ you must plan for your future and all the other CRAP that's coming out from that flithy mouth of yours. Like, what are you trying to imply? That you're really VERY prepared, you're VERY sure you're gnar walk through that path that you planned? haaah, i think not. I can't even believe a person like you, think you are so well prepared. GOD~
&THEY only don't tell you in your face, cause they are TRYING to be polite and nice. Unlike you. You think you're aaaaaaaaaaaaall that, but HEY, guess what? YOU'RE NOT.
You are a pain in ALMOST everyone's ass. Why can't you keep your disgusting mouth of yours SHUT? What we are doing is STRICTLY NONE OF YOUR BUSINESS.
I seriously don't get it. Is your mind like only workin HALF the time. WE disturb you in class, YOU THINK WE PLAYING WITH YOU? YOU THINK WE LIKE SUPER GOOD FRIENDS, DISTURB HERE DISTURB THERE DE AH. haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahahahaha. JOKER MAN. You are so retardly SLOW that you cant see that we cant STAND you that's why we are DOING that to you huh. Personally i don't really like to find people trouble, but you, is a huge exception. Trust me, if you really piss me off in person, get ready to get whacked by me alright. You've been an eyesore for about 2 years. I don't mind get a whack at you. (; Believe me, if killing is legal, you'll be the first one on my list.

to put it simply, you suck, i hate you, alot of others cant stand you, so you better reflect and keep your mouth shut these few days or we won't let you off asshole.
;DDD

happy 191st post (;

was it me, or was it you that broke away?
for what we were is like a season love is change and
everytime i think about it, it tears me up inside.
like the rivers of emotion but i got no more tears to cry.
-a million miles away by rihanna

wow, 191st post already haha.
hmm, im gnar blog two post today. this one will be... a "normal" post? but the next one... is trashing someone. i know it's bad to trash someone, but, 1. i hate him. 2. he is REALLY asking for it. 3. though hate is a strong word, but i really really really really really really really really really really really DONT LIKE HIM. He sucks, big time.

Alrighty, today was a normal day, just had physics test. Quite tough, i am really hoping i'll be able to pass it. =/ I know i'm gnar flunk my that amaths test already. So...what the hell la! Lol. On thrusday will be our chem test. SOOOO not looking forward to it. I hope my tuition teacher will be able to explain to me. T.T

Sigh, its starting all over again. The pain. The nights of being emotional. The flashbacks. The heartaches. The tears [at times]. Man, i'm so SICK of this, when will i be able to get OVER it. daaaaaaaaaaaaaaamm. I don't want to be emotional, but it is soooo hard. Grr.

&&BAMBOO.IM REAAAL SORRY ABOUT THAT.=/

alright. im gnar start my trashyy in my next post. lalala. (;

I try so hard can't seem to get away from misery
man I try so hard
will always be a victim of these street
'sit aint my fault cuz I...
tried to get away but trouble follows me
and still I try so hard
hoping one day you'll come and rescue me
but until then, I'll be posted up right here in sleet hail snow
but until then...I'll be posted up right here with my heat gettin dough
-i tried by akon feat. bone thugs and harmony

Today was an extremely LONG day for us sec3s . Goodness. It's all the STUPID financial literacy workshop's fault. Like what the hell? We're only 15, with enough things in our mind already, and we have to go for this kind of workshop? Let me repeat, WE'RE ONLY 15! Why the hell do we have to go for this workshop? It's like, at our age, we should know how to manage our allowance and save some of it , not spending everything, can already what! My God. This afternoon was a WHOLE waste of time. And some people DO have other stuff you know? zzz
I really feel bad for the foreigners, cause they have to pay 19$ for this crappy workshop. Can you believe we played a money managing board game for around maybe.... 2 hours? And it's like our whole group{evonne enhui kania kristi me} can't understand the concept of the game! Call us stupid, but if you played the game, i don't think it would be that easy to comprehend. And maybe one of the reasons we didn't understand, is cause we came into the class late by 15mins?
LOL.
Oh well, enough about that.

You know, i actually had some other stuff to blog.
But currently i cant remember a thing. LOL. Bye People.(;

who would want to live a solitude life.

Second chances they don't ever matter, people never change.
Once a whore you're nothing more, I'm sorry, that'll never change.
And about forgiveness, we're both supposed to have exchanged.
I'm sorry honey, but I'm passing up, now look this way.
Well there's a million other girls who do it just like you.
Looking as innocent as possible to get to who,
They want and what they like it's easy if you do it right.
Well I refuse, I refuse, I refuse!
-misery business; paramore


BULLYING . What a talk. Lol.
Seriously, they can warn us and tell us about what is bullying and that WE can be the SOLUTION bla bla bla. But come on, since when was bullying that simple nowadays?
People just have to DEAL if they're bullied, unless, of course, those kinda super serious kinds like being bashed up or having their money extorted or e.t.c. , must report la. LOL.
But most of the time, who the hell complains about it. Its like, if you complain, you'll know you are so gnar be condemmed by other people for the rest of your... hmm, about sec sch life? Haha.
It's like if you complained, people will think you're a whimp or something. Especially complaining about small small stuff like being called names or something. The best solution for name calling is just to LEAVE those freaks alone! They'll find it bored after a while.
And vulgarities, like who the HELL doesn't use them ? LOL ?!
Saying vulgarities is like so natural for some people ler. For example, me. LOL.

Anyways, enough about that, last week, during cme lesson, mrs sunneeth was talking to us about CONDUCT in RELATIONSHIP. She always have a way of making the subject more lively. Lols! Esp there was one part when she asked us what does the D in CONDUCT stands for, ck was like; DO AND RUN. LOLLLLL. We burst into laughter. Hahaa. Having jokers like ck and luke in our class is WONDERFUL i tell you. ((;
Well, after that was over, mrs sunneeth was like telling us the story of her husband and her. Obviously i won't say any details here, but i can say i was kinda... Intrigued by the story. Haha. It's so nice to see more older generation couples being so loving even after so many years. I'm sure everyone would like that right? Growing old, having a partner that won't ever let you go, having a partner saying sweet nothings to you, having a partner to tell you how beautiful you look with all the wrinkles and white hair, having a partner that you can trust forever, having someone to love you as much as you love him/her, having a partner that will stand up for you no matter what; being in everlasting love.
Hahaha. Sorry i was kinda getting emotional already. Haha. x)
Any how, though we have love life now, well for some of us, we still can't avoid the pain of heartbreak and the disappointment when the other lets one of us down right?
The worst part is the breakup part. No matter how long it has passed, you'll still feel the ache at times, having flashbacks of the relationship that you want so much to avoid having, having the most frustrating feelg that you want so much to care for that person, but you're only his/her friend, you have to know your limits, having to look at them and pretend everything's fine, your heart is not ripped apart, you're having the time of your life, when you're actually literally experiencing hell. And the most extreme one, looking at him/her going around with their new girl/boyfriend. That is like having the most acidic kind of acid being poured on your heart and your heart is like taking its own time to melt. You can't do or say anything about it.
Looking at of the party is alright, but if you look at both of them together, thats a whole different feeling.
BUT HEY. We can't let them have the satisfaction right? We have to be STRONG! ((;
Though its really tough, but if you put your heart&soul to it, im sure we'll be able to do it. We just have to change the way we see things. We have to be happy for them if they're happy. And when they're not happy, we should fill ourself with HAPPINESS so we can cheer them up, like being there for them if we are needed.
I may sound like i'm full of crap, but hopefully some people will get what im trying to say.
Our feelgs don't control us. WE control our feelgs.
We can CHOOSE not to be sad. We can CHOOSE to be happy, choose to see things in a positive way, and then, we won't be as low spirited already.
(; I know its hard, but if you don't want to have this kinda sucky feeling every single day, thats what i suggest to do.
Im no expert in relationships, not at all.
I just find that this method is useful, and i hope broken hearted people out there will just go on with life, cheerfully.
Things that belong to you, will be yours in the end come what may.

I don't know why i'm suddenly sharing this but... oh well. Lol.
Maybe cause i saw something that i've been trying not to see, all month. Twice in day somemore.
Sigh. I've tried distancing myself from you, i've tried so many other ways, WHY can't i just succeed.

i need to find somebody who can't sleep at night
without holding me without holding me tight
i want someone who sees me all the time in their dreams
and then wakes up thinking just of me
spent time on my own
spent time being free
now i just wanna be

overloved
over needed
over wanted
over missed when i'm away
overloved
over dreamed of
over cared about
over everything
i'd give anything to be overloved

i want someone who can't wait to kiss me again
even though it's been a minute since they last did
want someone who loves love songs
and dedicates them to me
and two loving arms never out of reach
been fine all alone
did fine being free
this time i wanna be
...
-overloved by paula deanda

i really love that song.
i really love my parents.
i really love my girlfriends; en nia kris vic.
i really love my god bros;sis;darlgs.
& i'd really really love to forget you.

hey mr dj put a record on
i wnar dance with my baby.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY.(; iloveyoumanymany.

Long time no blog.
x( I apologise for that. Hadn't had the time or the heart to blog.
Been trying to cope with some stuff. (;
Anyways, i know i told you dummys {kaniakristienhui}, that i'd put the photos taken on kania's birthday here, but then you should know we're like extremely busy and the lack of sleep that i'm experiencing is really making me feel like crap. So yea. Hope you'll ti liang ti liang yi xia ok? Lol.

Well, school's been alright. But erp and all are gnar start so the days are going to be much, much longer. Sigh. Oh wells. =/
Hmm, today's quite a good day since we've had so many free periods. Wheeeeeeees. LOL.
Ok ok, getting my composure back.. I think i had too little sleep thats why i moodswing-ed again today. Soooooo sorry people. And starting to get stressed out a little by mathematics already. Grrs. And the teachers aint helping at all. Wtf. Lol.
Don't know why we're stuck with crappy maths teachers. zzz. I know they're trying but sometimes no matter how hard you try, people just still cant relate to you. Lol. 3e2s should get what i mean. Haha.

Alrighty now, im going to go bathe. Since i sorta just came home and everything.
LOVE ya people.
p.s. liting.imissyoumanymanyalright,(;iwnarbumpintoyoueverydayinschool.

you took me out from my comfort zone,
then left me in this world of chaos.