Sunday, June 03, 2007!
HandWritten on; 3:08 PM
WOW.
finally, hahaha.
its been like ages since i last blogged. haha.
goodness. now its the holidays ya'll! haha. kick back, relax, but remember to do your homework. hahas.
god i sound like a mother. xD
anw, ive been fine. thanks for some concerned comments. hahs.
i love you , you girls~ hahas.
hmm, its been a while. i still cant get you out of my system.
what is the thing that is preveting me from forgetting you! arghs.sighs. sometimes i really wished we could be .. numb. dont ya'll agree?
i mean at some point of time, the immense pain that you are feelg inside, you wish that it could all go away.
vanish into thin air. poof~!right? haha.
sighs,i want to tell people that IM OK! im fine! dont worry!
but... its seems too far fetched doesnt it? haha
gahs. what ever lahs . haha.
love is one of the most
complex thing in the universe.
i doubt anyone can ever understand it.
love love love.... why can it be sucha beautiful thing and yet so deadly at the same time.
reminds you of a certain flower doesnt it? haha.
the rose. the rose is beautiful and attractive, yet it has thorns on its stem. haha.
star crossed lovers, soulmates, puppy love, crushes, lovers, etc.
man. dont these things just blow your mind? haha
hmm
i love to read books, especially love stories.
and i love romance shows. i really believed that those things may happen to some lucky tom dick or harry in the world.
but what my mum said, woke me up.
"these are just shows and stories, they dont happen in real life. yes maybe if they do, its like 1 in a million. reality is not all fairytales my dear girl."
haha. so yea. thanks mummy for slapping me back to reality. really needed that.
god.
how could i be so naive. hahaha.
and even if theres someone who is your
trueee love, the ONE for you, highly doubt will find him or her now ehs.
man im so tired of heartaches, heartbreaks, the amount of tears that i lost and the amount of bruises that i got from letting my anger out.
i know its STUPID to hurt myself but man, what else do you expect me to let my anger out? strangle my toy dog? haaah. not gna help.
hmm, you know? there are some kinds of "medicine" that can help your heartaches. haha.
here are some of my medicines;
1- my best friends
2- my songs
3- dancing my heart and soul out
4- crying
5- screaming
hahas. really. these 5 types of medication do really help. esp no. 1
my BEST FRIENDS. theyre my gems. omg! i dont know how lost id be without you guys. =)
youve always been there for me, comforting me whenever i cried. showering me with love! haha. you girls are really
the best. i love you girls.nowadays, its so hard to find true friends. =) im lucky to have u girls by my side. thank you for everything. ;)
songs and dancing can really help too! haha. cant wait to go clubbing. then maybe ill get addicted to tat. =x but really, ya'll can try it out. just.. LET all your frustrations out in your dancing, your movements. but of course, pick those fast moving songs k? not songs like "ill be right here waiting for you" haha.
but yes, slow songs do help too. that comes in for no.4 haha.
CRYYYY girls! cry your heart and soul out. i know its tough to keep in all inside. man id die if humans cant cry. haha.
hmms, here are some titles of slow emo songs for ya'll to listen to.
-in this life
-p.s im still not over you
-say goodbye
-hurt
-when the last teardrop falls
-love, me
-ride for you
-better than me
-hero
-so sick of love songs
-what hurts the most
-when there was me and you
-when you're gone
yea these are A FEW songs only. hah. i highly recommand the last song. its by avril lavigne. =)
i love her album. haha. so punkrock. {which is something i totally dig} and her lyrics for each song... its meaningful. hahas.
see, this is the chorus part of the song when you're gone:
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you
ah damm. now im listening to the song "dont matter" by akon. ARGHS.
lols. memories are flooding back, so much till i think i can get drowned by them.
great god. lol.
ahh fuck. get this pain out of my system.
not fun you know.
oh wells.
there are tons of homework just waiting and staring at me.............. lol. gotta go start on them. haha. been a longg first week of holiday. with vesak day and everything. oh wells.
love ya'll
takecare alrights? =))
i miss SO MANY people.
p.s. im still not over you.
